A couple weeks ago, my doctor, AKA a human angel (she’s the best) said something to me that took be by surprise.
My doctor complimented me on my energy, saying something like:
“Wow, Kellee you have really good energy!”
I really was not expecting it at all, but it made me happy. It made me realize that the deep inner (mental, emotional and spiritual) work that I have been doing for over 3 months is paying off.
For the past 3+ months, I have worked with many different healers, read many books, and listened to numerous podcasts about the power of the mind and how to wake back up to your soul. These are things that were uncomfortable to me and I resisted for so long, but I KNEW that in order to heal and to live the life that I knew that I was destined to live- I needed to put in the work. So I did, I surrendered put trust into the universe. Over time and through more exploration, something from deep down in my subconscious mind came to light. It was the story I had been telling myself for the past 4 years since being diagnosed with Hashimoto’s.
It was the story of “I’m tired,” “I don’t have any more energy,” “I can’t exert myself like that anymore,” “I have to conserve my energy for work.”
I had been telling myself (and sometimes it was hearing myself speak to others) these things for so long and so many times until they were part of my identity. They were no longer phrases or thoughts, they became my inner beliefs.
Despite these thoughts and phrases-I actually wanted more energy. I didn’t want to be tired anymore. I wanted to be able to do all the things that a normal 20-something-year-old should have the energy to do. So why wasn’t I healing and gaining my energy back? I nailed my diet, supplements, movement, recovery, sleep…I thought I had nailed my stress? I didn’t understand back then. You don’t know what you don’t know.
When I began the emotional/spiritual work, I started to realize that I was in my own way. I uncovered the self limiting beliefs I had created about myself (that I was tired, weak, sick, low energy, etc.) and I pulled them out and exposed them for what they really were. They were words that started as a way to protect my energy. A way to explain to others and to myself that I was “sick” and that I wanted to heal. I became closed off in fear and in survival mode that I began living a VERY small version of myself.
Still having deep down dreams and desired to do more, see more, and experience more, but believing that I couldn’t because I needed to be careful with my energy.
When all of this came to the surface, I knew that in order to move forward I need to release these stories.
- I thanked them, because they were trying to protect me, but I no longer needed them and they no longer served my highest self
- I released them into the light and began rewriting my story.
I started stating daily personal mantras and affirmations like “I am healing, I am a healer, I am on my way towards healing.”
I grounded myself back in the things that fill me up, like being outside in nature, feeling the sunshine, and being around animals. I allowed light energy to fill me up to a higher vibration. And when I needed, I asked it to protect my energy as I imagined a while bubble covering me with love and protection.
I have not felt more like my true self in YEARS.
Probably since I was a kid. I now know first hand by uncovering old stories and limiting beliefs, we can heal and breakthrough to the life we actually want to live. We just have to believe it first- consciously AND subconsciously.
I took that compliment I mentioned before from my Doctor, as a universal sign that I am on the right track.
I am still “doing the work” to keep growing and moving forward, but that’s what healing is all about. It is a journey- with many learning opportunities and growing moments.
That is what life is all about.
So to person reading this who sees a bit of themselves in my story…Start to pay attention to the words that come out of your mouth, especially when you talk about yourself. If you notice anything negative or not in alignment with where you want to head in life, pause and question it.
Then, try replacing it with thoughts or words that transmit positive, high vibrational feelings. Create your own affirmations and say or write them daily.
Repetition is key.
This daily practice will help your mind rewire into new ways of thinking and in return will help you align with your highest self.
If you need support, accountability, and guidance with this- book a free 30 minute call to get more clarity and direction.
Sending you love as you “do the work” and I really hope to connect with you soon.